Doomed

I am totally doomed for TWC. I think the exam questions were like questionable. As in, I don't know how to answer them? And I didn't finish the second question. And I don't think I answered correctly. I really think this is crap man.

And you are so bloody f***ed up, aren't you? Giving me a curt and rude answer saying that you haven't discussed anything with your friends? WOW! Your notes and summary you prepared came out? So BLOODY LUCKY aren't you? Information overflow right? Bloody f***er. And you say your gf has interested some other useless freak in another school? WHY? WHY? Must be someone who has a better standard of english right? Go and have your everlasting love and s** life, F***ED-UP LOSER.

And to the two of you who printed notes for yourselves, F*** off. And I paid for your notes. Oooh, the irony of it. Selfish, ungrateful imbeciles. Short term memory is obviously something you two have. I am probably going to think twice before doing anything selfless for you two again. SERIOUSLY, USELESS, IRKSOME IMBECILES. Why are there so many screwed-up people in my life?

Sometimes

Sometimes, I think some people should learn to grow up. It's like so childish. Do they know anything else besides their own "suffering"? It's like what do you really think you are facing? It's nothing. It's just that dwelling on it makes you feel much worse than you should. I am probably in no position to comment as I occasionally dwell on my own misery more than I should encourage myself to.

Sometimes, I can't take it and I have this uncontrollable urge to throw stuff at your face. However, after discussing with my mother, that will probably reflect badly on me. Really, I think overreacting is a disease you suffer from. I am not sure whether it's terminal or not. Don't ask me anything if my opinion doesn't count. Bloody hell.

Sucky day

My sucky day started at 615am. I hadn't slept since last night and was feeling cranky. After checking my mail, I realised that my comms grade for the persuasion assignment was out. Well, I got a BLOODY B-. B-. B-. B-. B-. B-. B-. B-. B-. B-. B-. B-. B-. B-. B-. B-. B-. B-. B-. B-. B-. B-.

BLOODY HELL!!!!! I got B-.

And I screwed up my individual presentation for TWC as well. BLOODY HELL.

It's all over

I am suffering from a horrible headache and I hope you have a great time till the end of your miserable life. I wished I never came here. I wished my life didn't begin.

Bloody screwed up

You are such a bloody screwed up school with bloody screwed up people. With a screwed up system and screwed up directors and screwed up programmes. Basically, you have screwed up my life and screwed up your reputation. I am words away from saying the F word. Let me control myself first.

BLOODY SCREW YOU. GO SCREW YOURSELF. SCREW OFF. SCREW YOUR STAFF, SCREW YOUR STUDENTS, SCREW THE OFFICES, SCREW EVERYONE.

I am so disillusioned right now. You guys have made my day. I am crestfallen, I have never cried during these past few weeks of toture but just one email was enough for somebody who was emotionally stable to lose it. YES, I have lost it. I couldn't stop. As if my life isn't bloody horrible as it is. I should have gone away. As if the sorrow I have always felt all my life was not enough. IN THE END, JUSTICE NEVER PREVAILS. NEVER. Yes, I have seen enough of this world. Somebody, please just kill me. I have no wish to remain here anymore. Just kill me, end my suffering. KILL ME WITH SWIFT BLOWS, STABS, RUN ME OVER WITH A CAR. ANYTHING, just please help me end it. I can't see the light at the end of the tunnel so let me see the one I am supposed to see before I cross over.

Doing it right

I can never do anything right.

Overworked

I think my comms presentation is going to be great! RS did a great great great job with the slides and the video and I was so wowed by it. This is like making me feel hopeful. I initially thought we were going to die because we only prepared for like less than two week. The idea only began to take shape like last week. Now, it's so bloody cool! That means I can still do it for the rest of my work.YES!!!

Now, I have to go and memorise my script and think about how to tie my hair for tomorrow.